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Sylvibel Mar ([personal profile] if_at_first) wrote2014-10-10 08:30 pm

he's such a prude though

Sylvi settles in very thoroughly. She makes a point of going out on her wooden horse and wandering the city every day or two, even if she has no specific errand to run (although she does also place orders for lenses and very fine-tipped pens and new notebooks). She hugs Avedan when he has bad dreams and he hugs her when she does, if they successfully wake one another despite the long pillow between them on the bed. And she plows through piles and piles of old notes, and condenses her childhood for inclusion in the same library for future 'bels.

As of this moment she is up to her specialization in shines. Write write write.
do_over: (o. Kidan)

[personal profile] do_over 2014-10-16 05:34 am (UTC)(link)
Kidan grins.

"Thanks."
do_over: (n. Aydanci)

[personal profile] do_over 2014-12-06 07:34 am (UTC)(link)
Aydanci can't always be there when she needs him. He has to sleep, as hard as he tries to not. But this time, he is.

"Love..." He murmurs. In the early days he'd caress her face, or brush her hair out of the way, or - or something, but now he doesn't dare. The lesion on her face is getting worse, and he doesn't want to upset the poultice on it for a few hours yet.

But he has a look. It's a very distinct look. It screams, 'I love you, I love you, I love you, tell me if there's anything I can do to help, I'll do it twice, please, I love you, it's no trouble.' He's wearing it, right now.
Edited 2014-12-06 07:34 (UTC)
do_over: (n. Aydanci)

[personal profile] do_over 2014-12-06 07:37 am (UTC)(link)
"I think we both know that's a losing battle," he replies, almost wryly, if it wasn't for his eyes. He's cried before, but hasn't recently, mostly through willpower.
do_over: (n. Aydanci)

[personal profile] do_over 2014-12-06 07:40 am (UTC)(link)
But he's not. So he notices.

"Love?" whimpers Aydanci. Can't hold her hand, too painful, can't kiss her, can't - "Love. You're - darling, can you breathe...?"
do_over: (n. Aydanci)

[personal profile] do_over 2014-12-06 07:47 am (UTC)(link)
Is it cruel of him, to demand that she stay? Maybe. Probably. (Yes.) But he can't help it. There isn't an ounce in him that could prevent him from saying:

"No, no, Aly, please, no. Breathe, love, there's - I can't lose you, I - come back, please!"

Moving her causes her agony, even with all the drugs. Even with her dancing towards overdose on all of them. But she can't breathe, he can't just -

Gently, ever so gently, he tilts her head back, just a tad, staying away from her jaw. This is a better angle for breathing, right? Isn't it? Damnation, all the work in - in medical everything and he can't help his fucking wife breathe!

"Don't go."
do_over: (n. Aydanci)

[personal profile] do_over 2014-12-06 07:50 am (UTC)(link)
"I'm sorry," he whispers. "I'm - so sorry, I love you..."
do_over: (n. Aydanci)

[personal profile] do_over 2014-12-06 07:52 am (UTC)(link)
"There's still - some chance. I - love, love you should have realized by now that I'm a - a selfish bastard and... and... I love you. I love you so much..."
do_over: (n. Aydanci)

[personal profile] do_over 2014-12-06 07:58 am (UTC)(link)
He smiles, just a little, at that.

"I'm sorry I'm selfish," he murmurs. "I am. But there's - there's no one else in the world like you, you're - irreplaceable, I can't just - I -"

He doesn't manage to finish the sentence. There are tears in the way,
do_over: (n. Aydanci)

[personal profile] do_over 2014-12-06 08:03 am (UTC)(link)
"There could be a chance," he says, desperately. "Some - some small..."
do_over: (n. Aydanci)

[personal profile] do_over 2014-12-06 08:10 am (UTC)(link)
"I - I know. Just - keep doing it. Because I'm selfish and I want you to stay, I want you to live forever, or - or - no, no, fuck it, I want you to live forever, period, much as I hate to sound like a petulant child, you're not allowed to die..."
do_over: (n. Aydanci)

[personal profile] do_over 2014-12-06 08:15 am (UTC)(link)
"Love. You're not just - you're brilliant, you're wonderful, you're - you make the world better by existing. It's not the - you've done great things, my dear, you're - don't remove yourself from it because right this second you are bedridden."

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