if_at_first | he's such a prude though

he's such a prude though

Sylvi settles in very thoroughly. She makes a point of going out on her wooden horse and wandering the city every day or two, even if she has no specific errand to run (although she does also place orders for lenses and very fine-tipped pens and new notebooks). She hugs Avedan when he has bad dreams and he hugs her when she does, if they successfully wake one another despite the long pillow between them on the bed. And she plows through piles and piles of old notes, and condenses her childhood for inclusion in the same library for future 'bels.

As of this moment she is up to her specialization in shines. Write write write.

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"... You had a nightmare...?" he wonders.

"Yeah. You don't remember? One of Aly's close calls. Not her death yet, still. Maybe I can skip it. Lu never caught up with all the dreams..."

"Kind of remember," he explains. "... Sooort of foggy. Sorry it happened."

Snuggle!

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"Also then while you were snuggling me I said I loved you and you said you loved me. Then we went back to sleep."

"Oh."

Blink blink. Followed by some thinking.

"... I stand by my statement. The one I don't remember making at - whatever hour of the night it was. Whoops."

"It would be slightly awkward to take back. I meant it too. It's sort of weird what with the reincarnation though, isn't it?"

"A little. We're special cases," snorts Avedan.

"How much I feel like my past lives seems to vary from - minute to minute. Right after waking up it's all really fresh, and then it settles into being decades ago, fuzzier than - than things that happened the most recent time I was six. But if I'm reading my old notes or every now and then if something familiar that I haven't been exposed to much yet this time around pops up, all of a sudden I'm one of them again for a moment."

"I - don't quite see them as me, in most cases? Sometimes I do. But it's more - they are people with my ability to judge and similar - if not the same - values, so I can trust what they say, or write, but it's somewhat harder to just - be them."

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"I think in my case being them is sort of a - collective defense mechanism. If we're all one person it's okay that we get dream memories of other sub-parts of the person that we are."

"Oh. That - makes sense. I think."

"Does it? It sounds silly when I say it out loud, but it's been working, so I don't wind up shaking my fist at Next Time Around Me and don't feel like I'm a psychic parasite on my past lives."

"It sort of does. I'm not worried about Next Time Around Me having my thoughts, because - there's really nothing they could do with them that could affect me? And it would be someone that's essentially me, just - with a different life, so it's not like they're going to do anything nefarious with any of it anyway. There's a privacy issue, and it does kind of bug me that I get all of the... Er, private moments, but it's annoying and a bit embarrassing, not life changing."

"The privacy issue would bother me enormously if I didn't think of all of me as a person with some amnesia issues and a recurrent de-aging problem. I don't want other people to read my mind, not even if I'm not technically around to object."

Avedan nods. "Right. That I understand."

Snuggle. "We've probably had this conversation before, haven't we."

"Probably, but I don't remember having it."

"Yeah, me either. Yet. In a few hundred years we are going to have, like, the All Philosophical Discussions About Continuity And Reincarnation Dreams Night. It will be tedious."